i think that,
no matter what group i’m in
no matter what sorority i’m in,
i’m always alone.
it really doesn’t matter.
i’m just always alone,
i may always have friends.
i may always have “sisters”
but in the end,
i’m just alone.
it really doesn’t matter.
i have no one to depend on.
no real friends.
it’s just me and my family.
i shouldn’t rely on anyone.
it’s a foolish hope to have good friends.
i’m always going to be alone.
it’s always going to be just me.
i shouldn’t rely on anyone,
it shouldn’t matter.
but yet,
it still brings tears to my eyes,
i thought i finally found people to rely on…
but i don’t know….
sometimes,
when it’s late at night
and I’m all alone,
laying on my bed…
I really wish that I had someone with me.
it doesn’t happen often
but…
when it does, it sucks.
I hate the feeling of loneliness.
why did you have to mention it the other day?
or else I probably wouldn’t be thinking about it now…
My emotions are all over the place.
I don’t know what to think.
I don’t know what to feel.
my mind is just in a mess right now.
*sigh*
boys suck
what should i do?
*sigh*
@#@!@#$%$#@
because i’ve been so busy. I barely find time to write :\ I’m going to try to update more and to write more but let’s see if I can actually make it happen first…
I know what I want.
I see it.
I can almost feel it.
But it is not yet within my reach.
I know what I want.
I want to study abroad,
I want to travel.
I want to live a life that with no regrets,
doing anything and everything possible.
But before I can do that,
I have to prepare for it,
in order to make it possible.
I need to focus on school
and to work like crazy.
I need to raise my GPA
and save up as much money as I can.
I need to apply for scholarships
and grants.
I need to make it all possible,
and in order to do that,
I have to work hard.
I know what I want
and I know how to get it.
But in the meantime,
I have to work towards it.
i really don’t know what to write
except
i want to have a great summer
and i cant wait to go back to school
and i want to fall in love
the last one, i hope it happens this year
after the summer though
i want to know what love feels like
to think about someone every second of the day
to miss them when they’re not with you
to try to make them happy
to always want to be with them
but yet still give each other space to do what the other wants
i want to be in love.
i want that feeling,
of never wanting to let the other person go
and only wanting the best for them
i want it sooo bad
but i know that you can’t rush it
you must wait for it to come to you
good things come to those who wait
but waiting takes forever
and it seems as if i’m destined to never fall in love
i’m just going to continuously date forever
and never settle down
i’m never going to find anyone who can keep me down
for more than three months
i wonder who that guy will be
that will finally be able to tie me down
he must be some guy
but i’m still young
i have time
and although i want to fall in love
i supposed i can wait.
i’m having fun now anyways,
so i might as well enjoy it while it lasts
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sorry for not posting recently, i’ve been busy >_<
I need a guy that lets me speak my mind
and he won’t hold back either on what he wants to say.
A guy that cares about my feelings,
but will always tell me the truth,
…well, maybe he’ll sugarcoat it every once in a while
if i need it.
A guy that will cherish me, and only me
the kind of guy that girls chase after,
but no matter what, he only has eyes for me.
I need a guy that can flirt, but who only wants to flirt with me.
A guy that has style,
that looks good in anything,
a guy that turns heads.
I need a guy that can make me laugh,
a guy that is nothing like me, and yet exactly like me.
A guy that will shout to the world I’m his,
that will want me all to himself
but yet still be able to fulfill our social and adventurous side.
I need a guy that knows I love to go out and meet people
but that I only have eyes for him.
I need a guy that will love me,
just as much as I’ll love him.
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i guess i got the idea for this because of taeyang’s “I need a girl”
i actually think that I can write this so much better, maybe I’ll do another version of this when I’m not so tired…I had a long day, I can’t believe I’m still up… >_<
Dreams…
are they a blessing or are they just a tease?
are they what we really want?
urging us to go after our dreams,
to make them a reality?
or are dreams simply out of our reach?
is it just teasing us, giving us a glimpse into what we want
making us yearn for it, to have it,
and then when we come so close,
it’s at the tips of your fingers…
only to let it fly off into the distance
at such a speed that we dare not catch it.
dreams…
such a complex concept,
I don’t know what to make of it.
nancylam asked: this isn't a question, but i love your posts <3 =)
thanks <333
I want a love that’ll understand me
that’ll put up with me through my good and bad moments
I want a love that won’t judge me when I freak out and break down
He’ll accept me for who I am
and know how I am inside and out
I want a love that’ll understand my sarcastic humor
and laughs just as much as I do
a love that keeps me grounded
and can see through my tough exterior
I want a love that knows I’m a strong person
that I’m independent and can be on my own
but knows that I’m happiest when he’s around
I want a love that completes me.
